super no mood .
quarrelled with my mom last nite .
raelly cant take it any more .
this relationship between me and her are really getting worse and poorer .
if i continue to stay with her, i will gO mad .
she does not understand the stress i'm facing .
she always discourage me .
she is the satan for stoping motivation to comes in .
when i'm studying outside, she always assume that i'm having fun outside .
and she normally dont talk to me .
she shout at me .
den we willl start to quarrel .
many times, i've been controlling .
let her say wad she want but some time she is really too much .
getting far too much .
i'm sorry if i'm not ur perfect daughter .
no one is perfect .
neither u are a perfect mom .


showing favourtism and bias, its ok with me .
i was independent enough to take care of myself .
since young i've been very independent .
i've been very understanding .
i try to spend less .
buy books with my own money .
trying to help .
but she does not appreciate it .
ok nevermind .
its ok with me .
i'm a very optimist person .
i see things not only one side .
maybe this way, i will not irritate u and vice versa .


congrats that u've removed the dirt in your eyes .
being a Christian doesnt mean cannot do wrong things .
Christian are humans too .
but somehow, ppl always think that Christian always do the right thing .
they are so so wrong .
no one is perfect .
there's bond to be mistakes make .
so sorry if u cant accept it .
but see, i'm already a Christian .
do you have a religion ?
then, tell me what religion u're from when i dont see you pray and gOing to temple often ?
at least, i'm religious and i go to my *temple* once a week some times twice .
but you ?
call urself buddhism or taoism ?
*cant differentiate whether they are b or t .
*you=mother


i'm not here, to criticise anyone religion and i didnt say that Christians is de best .
but i do believe that ultimately, we belong to one God .





once a happy family but now ?
are we still ?
but still i'm thankful with a mom and dad .
consider myself lucky .
all the memories will not be erase .





how i wish the time will stop right there at the moment .
growing up may not be the best choice .



hope all of u have a happy family ! =))

♥ my thought you cant decode ♥ 6:14 PM