OH I JUST REALISED .
there's no any specific person for the u in my latest post .
it can be any1 .
if u think its u then AHA its you .
ok lame .
-_____-

♥ my thought you cant decode ♥ 12:15 PM

THIS POST WIL BE A LONG LONG POST !


WHAT IS FRIENDSHIP ?
WHAT ARE FRIENDS FOR ?
these are always a knot in my heart .
i'm always unable to untie it .
its like sort of a burden in me .
but i choose to get over with it .
i do not want these qns to tie myself up and be moody all day long .
i think last month, alot of things happen .
misunderstandings, miscommunications .
broken friendships, or rather broken promises to some .
we know ourselves best .
what are we going through and what happen .
we know who we are .
whoever who read these and are concern do not feel offended or upset, as everything is over, holes are mended on the outside its up to us ourselves to mend the flesh and muscles together in the holes .


i come across this phrase : guard ur heart as it's the well-spring of life .
a very chim phrase which i ponder for a while .
until now, there's a lot of uncertainty abt how am i going to guard my heart, as i'm hurt again and again .
i may be sensitive .
i think i lost the cheerfulness and happiness last time .
maybe when we grow, problems grow with us at the same time we seemed to think alot .
i think i'vechanged, my life was transformed when i know God, so on and so on .
i've seen girls that are save and back slide .
going to get immune to it but i wont give up .


back to my qns again .
what is friendship ?
what are friends for ?
friends are indeed God's gift to us .
be it good or bad .
but i dont believe in bad friends .
why must we always see the ugly side of the person when he or she has got bonus ?
its up to our thinking and perception .
there's bond to have friends that fails you .
that doesn't keep their promises .
promises made are not suppose to be broken, but look at this world, things are always changing at the tick of the clock .
there's friends that comes and go in your life .
there's friends that cares alot for you and yet urself choose to hurt them and ignore them .
there's friends that are always there when you need them .
there's friends that persecute you and disagree you .
there's friends that dont see you as their best friends too .
everyone is different, this is the plan of God .
indeed we're lucky that we dont look or behave like one another, because if this is it, then there's nothing we can learn from one another .
sometimes or often, we have friends that we find them difficult to deal with .
but we cant forsake them just for ur own sake .
we've got no choice because that's our friend .
although difficult ppl are hard to handle, but we learn alot of things through them .
the more friends we have, the more expose u are to types of ppl .
why friends do backstab u ?
but come to think of it, if u're good at all of the things, will ppl backstab u ?
i know it very well, because no one is perfect .
no matter how good i may be to my friends, there bond to have ppl that dont like us .
but if ppl dont like us what can we do ?
we cant force them to like us too ?
quarrels after quarrels are inevitable some times .
even closest friend bicker .
because i believe all these tests and trials bring us to a higher height of our friendship .
no matter how strong the bonds u and ur friends have, it will nv complete because there's more space for the bonds to fill in .
when u are feeling down, naturally friends who care will tell you that they will be down for you .
but with this sentence, u cant assume that they will always be there for you .
they have their own life and other friend too .
when u really love a friend, iloveyou is essential .
its pleasing to the soul to hear , but do not take it for granted .
friendship and relationship are the same .
its a mutual thing .
everything takes two hands to clap .
sometimes when u needed someone, u have to initiate .
when friends tells u tt they love you and will be there for you doesn't mean they know u completely, inside out .
u have to go to them when u needs help .
u cant assume that they know that u're in need when u dont speak out .
only God knows .

so much so for friendship .
so much so for friends .
so much so for problems .
so much i wanna list down .

but for those who are reading this .
be it u have ur own friendship problem or friend's problem that u cant solve(altho i think guys wont have so much of a friendship prob), pls think of the followings qns that i wanna post and challenge all of you .
firstly, were u there for ur friend when they needed you ?
did you make this first step to ask for help when u need it ?
did u think for ur friend in all circumstances ?
does ur friend really break the promises that they made earlier on to you ?
were u the one imagining things ?
c'mon be true to urself .
do not lie .
we know ourselves best .


its heartwrenching when u know ur friend thinks that u're not there for them .
for me, i've promise all my loved ones that i will be there for them when they needed me .
do not solve things on ur own .
approach someone whom u think they can handle things in a calm and fair manner .
although last month issue, break down the bond between us .
we seemed to have drifted apart .
maybe others may see us together again but for me i think it looks good on the outside but inside us it seems to get uglier .
i'm not angry not bear any grudges toward u girls because i'm not in this situation .
but things get out of way, misunderstandings and miscommunications causes me into this picture .
i dont mind .
i wanna be there for those who need me .
do u know how i feel ?
put urself in my shoes .
it doesn't concern abt a few ppl but it concern abt the future bonding of the team .
but all these its over .
i hope all of us learn somethings out of this and we can pick it up again .
i did promise that i wil be there .
come to me when u need me to be ur listening ears .
do not assume that i know u're feeling terrible inside because most of us are of different lvl and class .
and so i'm always here, for everyone .
come to me when u're feeling down .
even if i'm busy, i wil listen to u .
i cherish all my friends and i wanna be there for all of u .
my HOTLINE is always open to those who needs me .
THIS I PROMISE and IT SHALL NEVER BE BROKEN !

♥ my thought you cant decode ♥ 12:01 PM

I am not a superwoman .
Nor a extraordinary girl .
But i am special because i am a princess .
A princess that lives in His kingdom forever !





oh what is life ?
tell me what is life ...
anw i've got loads of things i wanna do after my O's and i'm always thinking abt it .
haha .
cant wait man .
i wanna try song writing .
i wanna work to earn my own money .
i wanna do His work for HIM !
i wanna reach out to the unreached .
i wanna be a pre-primary kids teacher .
i wanna sell fashion apparel and accessories .
i wanna do nail art as an extra living .
i wanna open shop blog .
i wanna upgrade my skills of singing, going to find class for that(church going to subsidize half) YAYNESS !
i wanna learn fashion .
i wanna learn dancing NEW JAZZ !
so much so much .
list goes on without stopping .
i think i wil use half of my life to do all these things !
LOL !
tmr will be the last day of prelim, YAYNESS at the same time SADNESS !
YAYNESS because can finally have a good rest .
SADNESS because O's is nearing .
so far yet so near, so near yet so far .


went for night study just now .
haha .
cook dinner for mei ting and myself .
how nice luh .
damn full now .
I LOVE BANANAS !
and so like i studied for a while .
cant concentrate .
very hot .
hot and steamy man .
and yea so funny luh .
on our way home, i ask wei liang if he's single .
then i introduce olivia to him cause she wants to have a boyfriend in 2 months time as her beloveds both have got their bf, left her .
LMAO !
so funny .
she want her man to have car, wei liang got jiao ta che( bicycle) .
she want her man to have looks, wei liang still ok .
she want her man to have money, 10 cents also money .
JUST NICE PPL !
haha .
then wei liang ask me not to be so di siao .
ok luh .
tt was just a joke .

♥ my thought you cant decode ♥ 9:49 PM

I THINK I WILL GET MY ICE CREAM !
hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe !
CUTE GIRL save money for my ice cream !

♥ my thought you cant decode ♥ 3:32 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY !

although u dont understand me but i still LOVE you =))))

♥ my thought you cant decode ♥ 9:51 PM

HEY PEEPS !
you are entering into the MOST etertaining blog ever =)))))
ok i'm laming .

hah .
anw, past few days when i was flipping thru few magazines, i'm like saw this advertisement .
a post of those u know hotline for those loners .
they will have those SLOGAN like, eg NI JI MO MA?( are u lonely? )
and dreamchat whatsoever .
like totally -____-
and u know what i saw this time ?
i guess its another operator .
their SLOGAN, eg ATTACHED BUT LONELY ?
GOODNESS !
i show all of u the picture .

i'm so totally disgusted luh .
attached but lonely, what does it got to mean ?
trying to teach the readers how to be past time when ur lovers not beside you ?
oh c'mon, those tried calling or called are so BRAINLESS !
i cant deny the fact that they really do past your time excitingly BUT what for ?
enjoy talking on the phone so much with a stranger ?
LMAO !
i so totally disagree to this luh .
lonely but attached then ask ur friend out for a catch up or whatsoever .
u cant expect ur man or woman to be by ur side always rite ?
then go find a thambelina's liked gf/bf, u can easily reach out into ur pocket to find them .
simple hur ?
firstly, calling all these hotlines are not FREE-OF-CHARGE !
secondly, u're being dishonest to ur another half .
lastly, i've got nothing to say .


POA is an another GONNA .
i think so far, ALL papers are GONNA .
SIGH !
i must work HARDER i swear .
pasta mania's not FAR away from me *CUTE GIRL*
ice cream eh not sure lehs =)))
nvm ice cream cheap cheap only :):):):):):)
PASTA MANIA IS COMING ON MY waY !

♥ my thought you cant decode ♥ 8:04 PM

tmr's paper .
so DEAD !
POA .
totally madness .
tried to study in the library with sharity and then marcus(he came later) but nothing gets in .
HECK !
fail fail lor .
i'm not scared of failures .
the only fear in me is myself .
CHIM ?
go and figure out urself =D


very long nv exercise alr .
so i've decided to go badminton tmr .
not sure if there's any .
shall ask ard .


JOKE(s) OF THE DAY !


Q:why does bird laugh at people ?
A: because its a MOCKINGBIRD !

using a koreacumjapanese lang to communicate .
this is how crazy we are .
wanna experience it ?
try it urself .
while on the way home, in the bus .
when sophia and olivia gets together, we will start to make a public nuisance out of ourselves .
LAUGHING LOUDY, TALK LOUDLY .
just now as our koreacumjapanese lang are commencing, as we convers this way, a SOT old man walk lup to us, mumbling to himself which we dont understand .
i feel like laughing but olivia and meiting got so scared that they hide behind me .
i was abit frighten as first but then i tot to myself, why scared of him ?
he's old and harmless .
LMAO !


schedule for tmr, go to school in the morning .
do my poa paper .
get back home to rest and then out to school again at 2 for phototaking and then badminton training .
MADNESS ?
yes .
LUCKILY i'm just staying opp school .
if not i'll curse and swear .
waste of my money !
=B

♥ my thought you cant decode ♥ 10:25 PM

I'M BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED !

tmr is maths paper 2 so WORK HARD and JIA YOU everyBODY !

♥ my thought you cant decode ♥ 6:31 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLIVIA OH !



HAPPY BIRTHDAY STANLEY ORH PI SAI !


2 years ago ! cute hor . look like monkey =)))))

LOL yesterday after dinner, bought a banana den ask stanley if he want .
when he's approaching, the banana decided to commit suicide and dropped onto the table .
LMAO .
in the end, marcus bought banana also .
he share with marcus and i went to buy another one and i share with my POKS .
totally funny !


my POOR banana ! =(((((((((

♥ my thought you cant decode ♥ 11:18 PM