didnt gO school today .
was too tired and was having a headache .



recently, God really show me alot of things .
He showed me faith was not blind, His love was not just by dying on the cross .
He was great all this while to me .
when i'm down, He's there . when i'm lonely, He's there .
He never fails to encourage me and be there for me .
He listens to my cry and prayer and made them true all the time .
ever since i've come home and all the prayers from bro and sis .
my relationship with my mom is really getting better .
till now its improving .
i really hope this will really stays .
He showed me how to love people around me .
i've been trying .
my realationship with one of my sister in Christ are getting better .
He really never forsake me .
although at times i felt lonely .
i feel very neglected sometimes but He is always there .
is great to have the passionate feeling again =)
i admit i've been neglecting His words .
i've been a sinful child .
i've been a bad follower .
i always tell ppl to do this and that to have a good walk with Him and yet i didnt fulfil what God wants me to .
but i'm picking it up again .
i need time .
i need discipline .
i need to be depending in His spirit and strength .
i've been running my life with my own strength and not depending God .
but i've learn how to depend on Him slowly .
really thank God for all this .
He let me know the inside out of me again .
He teaches me how to understand ppl, he teaches me how to console ppl, he teaches me how to love ppl and he teaches me how to understand myself better .
life has never been the same again after i've been a christian .
many thought that christian are leading a easy life .
they heard that Jesus saves us, loves us and all .
but they only see and heard of those very basic things .
it wasn't easy if ur family objected u being a christian moreover u're the first generation .
it wasn't easy when God put you through alot of tests and trials for u to overcome .
it wasn't easy when you have no one there in ur family to understand u .
BUT God was the best teacher i swear !
yes, He puts us in all those tests but He brought us out and gave us a clearer picture of life .
He puts us in all test but He never leave us at any moment to let us die in the situation .
God was really awesome in this period of time .
i was told to walk very closely with God during my hard times .
and i hope i did .
although alot of things i didnt tell Him but i know He knows it ALL .
but it is better to tell Him becos He loves to hear from you .
i've been praying and talking to Him during my hard times .
but i was reminded not only hard times then i'll find Him to talk but in ALL times .
He gave me few verses in mind and He spoke to me through irene's sharing last sat .
we must have 3 S's to know God more .
1) search for Him
2) surrender our ALL to Him
3) seek after Him with all our heart,mind,soul and strength
this really spoke to me .
and this verse from Joshua1:9 when i'm really down and feeling discouraged and helpless .
Joshua 1:9 (New International Version)
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."


Hope this verse will bless you people =))

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