i think our relationship is not as good as be4 .
i think times spent together really prove everything .
ever since i've been a Dm i lost alot of things .
alot than i thought .
but what can i do ?
coach once told me .
leaders and Dm(future leader) have to give up alot of things have to make a lot of sacrifice .
but if this makes me sacrifice my friendship i wil not want it .
but God never give up on me many times how am i possible to give up on just one thing tt i treasure ?
God treasure His son, Jesus Christ too .
i'm sorry Lord tt i've made this decision and make this statement at first .
but now i'm not going to give up my plans u have for me .
i'm gonna press on no matter wad .
time wil prove everything .
i hope the friendship i have wil not just becos of this i have to let go .
i must learn how to cling on .
but this seems to be very difficult .
many times, i feel like breaking dowm .
all the coldness and attitude .
but wad can i do ?
i noe sometimes is my fault maybe more of the time .
but i really treasure our friendship .
i really do .
i'm tt kind of person tt bottoms down all my feelings .
not even to God i'll tell him personally .
but i must learn .
to speak it out .
it sounds ironic becos i'm a person tt is quite vocal .
but sometimes when things turn out to be not the way i used to think i wil avoid .
and thus i dont speak out .
i must learn how to talk things out to the person .
i must learn not to bottom up all my feelings .
i must learn not to give up easily on God's purpose .
many times, i'm so focus on God's work tt i forgot about my friends .
many times, i'm so focus on God's work tt i forgot about myself and my pain .
many times, i'm so focus on God's work tt i forgot about my family .
many times, i'm so focus on God's work tt i forgot about spending time with God .
i need to repent .
i really need to repent .
i'm losing the first love i have for Him soon if i continue to live my life this way !
i do not want it to happen !
but nevertheless, i'm happy to see the new comers in church are growing !
spiritually growing !
thanks be to God .



THANKS IRENE FOR TALKING TO ME LAST NIGHT !
ILOVEYOU !

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