recently certain things happened in my family .
it left me hanging there, helpless, hopeless, losing the happiness and warmth of a family that i tried to cling on so tightly .
i guess all these dont really matters much to me anymore .
i've got more things to focus on .
though all these happens at this period, i know it happened for a purpose .
this few days i realise i don like to open my mouth to talk .
even talking with my friends is no longer a thing i always enjoy doing like i did in the past .
i just don feel like talking .
seeing my parent esp my dad feeling so devastated, depressed and helpess, i wna help him, i wna comfort him but i'm not that strong enough cos in the end i might be the one receiving comfort from him .
i'm weak with dealing my emotions esp sadness i admit .
as sadness flows through my family, seeing that rascal turning bad to worse and worse to worst all i can do is to just commit my family into Lord's hand .
i believe only Christ the Lord can salvage this brokeness in us .

wanna share with all of you a very nice christian songs of reflection, recognition and response that touches me deep down in my heart .
TO LIVE IS CHRIST
i make a vow
my life will always honour Christ
whether i live or die
i belong to Him
He bore my sin
i owe this life to my saving King

alleluia
i am not my own You are in control
alleluia

for me to live is Christ
and to die is gain
no matter what price i pay
i choose to give this life away

only by the cross i am saved X2

alleluia
i am not my own You are in control
alleluia

for me to live is Christ
and to die is gain
no matter what price i pay
i choose to give his life away

♥ my thought you cant decode ♥ 11:55 PM