9 more days to my chem practical
oh Lord, grant me strength, wisdom, peace, and most imptly discipline to study !
i am not confident ~
phobia for not doing well again crumbles me ...
i'll try my best !
and be strong and courageous sophia ong u can do it !

been rather hyper recently .
beginning to see some change in my family .
no quarrels, no hurt, nth and i must say nth much happen this few days .
guess i've chose the right way by not talking much and bother ___ much .
its a good way not to cause any dispute tt leads to quarrels .
my dad has always been a joker .
guess with him at home during the weekdays certainly creates alot of funny and lame stuff from him .
and oh this few days both of my dogs gets along really well till these 2 days all they do it walking in and out tog and my pervertic figo keeps wanting to ____ my bitch and on the other hand tt bitch happily let him do whatever he wants -_-
rather pissed off at the both of them and at the same time they amuse me with their little actions .
how cute !
showing love in front of us makes me think of how childish and selfish human's love can be .
many things happened too but out of family context .
i shan't say anything how i feel abt bgr and all that cos i'm afraid tt i will cause myself in some hot soup cause i'm not good with 'nice wrapping' words .
maybe because many times i speak w/o thinking first and therefore i always offend ppl w/o knowing till something happens .
cant help it but i'm too straight forward i'm trying not to be too bland with words but sometimes i still fail to do so .

ytd was in the lib studying .
met kok, cm, yj and billy .
saw evelyn and her friend too C:
study till ard 7 i used kok's laptop to check something and kok told me some spicy news of his ex classmate, the one that i think its cute of cos def not eng kok chye ...
that he and his gf having cold war due to that girl's wrong doings to him .
crap, i think its way abit to poor a thing not because that he's cute or what .
his gf is a HOT STUFF labelled chick too !
her figures can makes guys all stand and even girls like me go bow wow wow !
abt what wrong doings that girl did to him i shan't reveal cause its their matter and upon hearing this spicy news suddenly i said something like, if cant commit don step into it cause it will get u nowhere ...
in a r/s, is to trust and at the same time not to do things that will break this basic trust .
its like how many r/s in this era last with TRUST in their r/s ?
if u jolly well think u cant trust then don start cause it will do u both no good, only will have endless problems to solve .
tt's something i've think abt ytd upon hearing their spicy news .
but hey both of them are good looking =D
don ask me who cause i don even know them myself .
hahahahahahahahahahahaahaahahahhahahaaahahaa C:

okay so good news for those who love western food or big eaters or botak jones' lover there's a newly opened stall at the woodgrove mall .
looking at the portion they served ytd when the guys ordered i feel like puking cos its super eerrrhhhh ...
olivia came to join us too !~
i was quite full so i didnt order those meat stuff to eat so i decided to have a caesar salad, wasn't that nice shld say not nice at all ...
but those that the guys ordered taste not tt bad but i think its salty .
oh ya recently, i think billy change alot .
like i dunno how to say it in words i think he's becoming hmmmm more and more what's that what's that ? crap i dont know how to put it in words .
like ytd, we saw a caucasian teenage girl, i tot she was quite pretty, cm said that not as pretty as he expected and when he asked billy i was shocked at wad billy replied, erms something like " i don judge "
crap he made me reflect and think that i've been rather judgemental recently ...
i cant i cant judge but yet i always do, forgive Lord .
i shall now praise everyone and not judge as much as i will like last time .

and oh this very person that i tot i cant get along with him but i tried he wasn't tt kind of person tt i tot he were and therefore i thank God that he spoke to me about him and make me walk out of my comfort zone .
but then again, i hope not, soon i think i will get very traumatised of him because he always like to scare me all of a sudden .
now is the initial state, i might think its fun and all, no hard feelings but when i sit down to think about it and if this matters prolong then i really will get very traumatised .
hopefully i can help him to stop all these stupid terrorising actions maybe through me he will realise what he is doing is really not right .
God, pls protect me cause i don wanna die so young !
and God, take away those harmful weapon that will harm the body of Christ .
and if matters prolong, pls take away this person in my life cause i don wanna go mad because of ...
i know its rather rediculous and he might not be doing all this on purpose only You know .
so pls keep me safe in Your hand, in jesus name i pray, amen !

♥ my thought you cant decode ♥ 11:05 PM